Normal to secretly want to become pregnant after miscarriage ?

It's fine to want a baby, especially after a loss like this. When I miscarried, we were not expecting that baby, either. My biggest fear was that my husband would not want to try for another. Part of why I was so upset was because I thought my chance to be a mother was gone. If you truly want another baby I would sit down with your boyfriend and explain to him that you want a baby and why. Don't trick him into thinking you are using your birth control, it's not fair. Good luck and sorry for your loss.